For the last two years, I haven't written on this blog
consistently. 'Patchy' probably describes my writing, at best. This place
doesn't feel as safe and private as it once did, and so part of my
candid speech is gone, which makes it feel a little inauthentic, which
makes it hard to write.
So, I've gone back and forth about what to do. Not writing or continuing to not write very much is not an option. I need to be writing, it feeds my soul. The way I see it, either I can pack it in and call it a day here and start a new blog that will
give me more anonymity like Landlocked & Loaded used to do, or I
can just say 'fuck it' and be unapologetically me.
Sadly, this was a
tougher choice than it should have been. Of course I want to just be me
and say 'screw the haters' or whatever people say now to their haters. But I have a career, and strong opinions, and a family that I don't want to
disappoint with some of my more wild actions.
Ultimately
though, I just can't imagine deserting Landlocked & Loaded. She's been
with me for so long, doesn't deserve to be abandoned and left for
dead. Besides, the title is still accurate, I am indeed landlocked. Though the mountains all around do mostly make up for it. I guess what I'm saying, is I know there will be more backlash offline than online for the choice I've made here, but it's a risk I've got to take. I'm back, and it's time to make some changes. I hope you'll join me.
S
Atta girl!
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